Some "lasts"

Any of you ever heard of that book by Karen Kingsbury called "Let me hold you longer"?

I haven't read it since becoming a parent, but I remember my sister trying to read it to me on more than one occasion and she couldn't get through it without creating a puddle of emotion and tears all over the pages.

The essence of the book is that when you are going through life, sometimes you don't realize you are in the middle of experiencing a "last" with your child.

The last time you ever rock them to sleep. The last time you get a kiss on the lips before they head off to school.

In this time in my life where I am prepping my nest for a new little birdie to come to our home, I am becoming aware of my "lasts" with Little Girl.

Just recently I realized that I can't remember the last time she said "Hold You Mommy. Hold You", or

the last time she said "saw-hee", instead of "sorry".

I also can't recall the last time she used her sign language to say "please" or "thank you" or "More to Eat". (Ah man. I loved her cute little hands doing all those signs to communicate with me back then.)

And, going to the doctor today and having them telling me that my Little Girl is 75th percentile for height and 90th percentile for weight made me realize how big my big girl is really getting. My girl is tall people!

I am in some of my "last" stages with her. She has only weeks, or maybe days left of being mommy's one and only priority.

Our routine will change.
My focus will change.
My patience will change. :-)
and, my heart will spread out over to two little people instead of just to one.

Ugh. How will it be done?

I heard her tell me the other day "Don't be sad mommy. I'm here. Jesus is with you." It was so sweet and it was so innocent that it made it all the more special to my ears.

I hope that it wasn't one of my "lasts".