"I don't like New York Today"........by Kara Messner

UGH!!!!  I hope this post doesn't come out as crankily as I am feeling it, but who knows.  I'm just the writer here.  I can't control these fingers and what they may type! :-)  Yesterday and today were stressful and not so fun days in the city for me.  I went to my all time favorite grocery store "Whole Foods" yesterday (without a husband and child, so should've been perfect) and felt more stress than one person should feel by herself in her very favorite store.  I have my list in hand and I am trying to make my way down the aisles.  Now, I am a thinker when I go grocery shopping.  I need time to think.  Space to think.  And.....I just need to think!!! But, there is no thinkin' in a New York city store - just movin'.  Every time I looked down at my list and tried to concentrate on what to get next and which aisle I was in, someone was saying "excuse me!".  Sometimes they would just run over you and the "excuse me was, well, just implied."  This started my crankiness.  It took me well over an hour and a half to make my way through a very small WF's store.  Did I also mention the carts are WAY too small as well and I only had half my list done when my cart was overflowing?  Once I got into my line, I discovered that the counter-space (no moving conveyer belt) was like a 3 X 3 inch square to start setting your groceries.  For some reason, the lady kept staring at my stuff instead of loading it and I was standing there waiting for her to start a packin' so I could keep unloading.  I did all the right things too people.  I put all my frozen foods together.  All my canned goods.  All my cheese products, but she still seemed to be waiting for something different for me to put on the counter.  She was S-L-O-W!!!!  My back was hurting from the constant S-L-O-W bending to retrieve each additional item to shove on the counter, so I tried to lean to the side to give my back a little better angle.  This wasn't a good choice, because I forgot that the aisles around you that people are walking are also a 3 x 3 inch square and I heard my favorite words "excuse me!".  AAAAAAAAAA!!!!!  Was all I wanted to say.  I finally get out of this store (I at least had these items delivered, so my hands were free) and head to the subway to find my way back home to sit and wait for my groceries for the next 4 hours.  Oh. Yeah.  Good times!  I enjoy a lot of various things about New York, but grocery shopping is officially up there in the "I hate to do it here" category.  Man was that annoying.  Then, today was rough because I had a play date this morning that I attended to meet some new friends (which was on "Wall Street" if you can believe it.) and it just was different.  The girls were all nice enough, but boy are we different.  The hardest part to hear the girls talk about was the fact that their husbands work from early in the morning to late, late at night (I'm talking one girl's husband comes home at midnight sometimes and he's a banker).  I asked "when do your husbands ever see the kids?" The resounding answer was "they don't really."  That's crazy!!!  How do you keep a family alive like that?  How does a woman with children survive like that?  How do these poor kiddos survive without their daddy?  It was hard for me these past couple of days.  I feel out-of-sorts and I feel emotional in this big city.  Some of this could be hormone-induced, but who knows.  I could use some of your prayers girlfriends. Please pray for more adaptation to the city on my part and please pray the Lord will send me not just women to reach out to, because I definitely want to meet these women, but some Godly women as well.  I need them.  Thanks for listening to my thoughts today.  My husband is being a sweetie right now.  He told me to take the night off.  He canceled his meeting, made me dinner  and put Makenna to bed.  My only goal tonight (per him) is to watch American Idol's premier in about 5 minutes! :-)  Tomorrow is a new day and God is patient with me and will take care of me!  Goodnight girls!