Happy Bloggity New Year!

It's the New Year and it's time for new beginnings, new resolutions, and new opportunities.  I am not great at setting New Year goals, because I don't want to put that kind of pressure on myself to actually achieve them.  I will say more in my head "ok Kara - you better get it together and lose this weight.", but I probably won't say it out-loud for anyone to hear that may choose to hold me truly accountable.  :-)  I can be such a scaredy-cat of failure that it is ridiculous sometimes.  I honestly would rather just be comfortable, look calm, cool and collected and keep all my ducks in a row that I can control rather than suffer the painful realization that I can't do something and somebody's gonna think I'm an idiot.  Heaven forbid I think........that I might succeed at it.  I really am that personality (good or bad) that likes to keep things even keeled.  I don't want to rock the boat.  I don't want to venture out unless I am absolutely sure that I will be able to do it and will be able to look "not severely doofalicious" in the process.  Yeah, it's a word.  I am a free-spirit with lots of restraints.  I know that sounds silly, but it is oh so true.  I can look very easy-breezy and care-free to most people because I control the situations I am a part of.  I control how I am perceived and I control how much I divulge in conversations depending on my company.  I am not a risk-taker.  I am a safe girl.  I like comfort and I like knowing my friends are around the corner and that I have a play Saturday night.  I like routine.  So, my friends, here are some words to echo out my title of this blog "my THOUGHTS today are that I need to branch out of my comfort zone and be more open to new opportunities, my PRAYER is that Lord, I need your help for this because on my own I just want to go back home right now and pretend this new step in our life never happened and my ADVENTURE is.......well, you all know I am in New York City right now - right???  :-)  My life is an adventure and I love that part of it.  I really do.  I just need the Lord to help me get through this strong urge for routine and familiarity right now.  My adventure this week is to find a play group in the area and to sign Little Girl and I up for a class of some sort.  Me-Moddy is trying to be brave just like my daughter is brave and I am trying to find out what God has for us.  Like I said, I have to fight a little with some kickin' and screamin' when I don't feel comfortable, so here's a kick and a scream heading out into the blogging universe.  I refuse to be stuck here though because God's plans for me are great and I believe that.  I look in the face of my miracle child and I truly know in my heart that God must love me greatly to give me a child such as this.  Keep the adventures coming Lord..............just throw me a good friend and some dark chocolate with espresso beans along with way!